Turn back the time.

its 2:12 in the afternoon. i'm on my work.i have finished the tasks given to me. its friday,wow weekend!you come really fast. before writing  this, i have thought of all the computers around in our office. there were too many units.just like time, computers evolved fast too. from windows 95, as i can remember, to apple macbooks,etc. technology is really improving. but, will it really gives us relief and benefits?
when i was a child, after school, we played hide and seek, follow the leader,etc. it was so much fun. for me, it is the ideal and best childhood a child could have.  today, those games were now unknown to this generation's kids. why? because of technology. instead of playing hide and seek, they come home early, playing video games. its really sad that kids became like this for a short period of time. i  could not imagine what kids would play in the future years.
the effects are also an issue here. aside from deteriorating their eyes, their bodies lack exercise which makes them prone to sickness. their other parts of the bodies and brains are not developing, thus, making them more dull. although some games are so-called "educational", practical and actual teaching will never be replaced. a computer can never be an effective teacher because it only gives knowledge, it does not work/teach you to absorb the knowledge, that is why we can say it that its useless.
i hope technologies did not develop quite fast. people depends on the technologies greatly, excluding me. i am not a computer fanatic. i do use the internet,just for enjoyment, like social networks,etc. oh well, i've got work to do.

Things you just have to accept.

why is it hard to live, but an instant you can die?why is hard to earn money, while spending it is so easy?why is it you have to cook for hours for a dish, but in less than 10 mins its already in your tummy?why is it hard to pass,whereas it needs no effort to fail?why is it being good is so hard, but being bad is easy?why is it it takes months or years to build a building, but it only takes days or weeks to bring it down?why is it time flies when your with your girlfriend/boyfriend, but during your despised subject time stops? why is it easy to do a break one's heart, but difficult to ask for forgiveness? why is it you have to work hard to achieve a nice body, whereas you have to do nothing to have a clumsy one?why is it months of practice for a dance is needed, but the actual performance is for only 5 mins? why is it you will realize the value of someone or something when it is already gone?why is it others were born rich,while others poor? why is it its easy to judge people, but when it comes to ourselves, we are having a hard time?why is it we need to be hurt to learn? why is it we need to make mistakes to know the right judgment?why is it its easy to love someone, but loving you back is not a guarantee? 
Life is really a mystery. These are some of the things that we need to accept. there is nothing we can do about it. Maybe from these statements, we can see how life can be adventurous. How life can make you feel different feelings. Well, imagine if your always happy,all of us. At some point, we will reach boredom and nothing. No excitement. All of us will be the same. No uniqueness. So i guess, these natures of life are alright. They give us reasons to live. They give us freedom.

Smile at me.

It is 7:15 in the evening. Rain is keep on pouring. I ride a jeepney going to my apartment. Traffic is jampacked. My body is wasted from work. My eyes are closing, but I can't, I'm still on my way home. I might not be able to see my stop. The jeep is half full. I'm on the left side, beside me is a pretty girl. Well, that's also another reason why i dont want to sleep. I like to look at her from time to time, i just feel good looking at her. After few blocks before my stop, 6 kids ride the jeepney. they were all soaked in the rain. One girl was still wiping her face off before climbing the vehicle. They were noisy, very noisy. They talked about the rain, their subjects, families. With my condition, exhausted, i got quickly irritated on them. I just controlled it not to give a sign. Few minutes before icome down, two of the kids were teasing each other. Everybody laughs at them, even the pretty girl beside me. At that moment, it was like, why is it hard for me to be happy even for a single moment? why do i look people in a way that it is not good in my feelings? looking at the pretty girl beside me, our eyes met for a split second. wow, it was like, happiness is just a matter of perspective. everything around you is happiness, it only depends on you if you treat it as one. After that vehicle ride, while walking towards my home, i was smiling. I am smiling because i gave myself a chance to be happy for a moment. Those kids were really hilarious. I laughed too before i gone down. it was really nice to feel that at an instant, feelings can changed. Some people wants to be happy, as they say. As for me, happiness wants to be in some people.

When leaving is relieving.

After months with my family, i had to go because i was accepted in a job i was applying for. My emotions are mixed. Happy because of the job, and sad because of my upcoming departure.
Seeing your family everytime you wake up is really a blessing for any individual. You have that feeling of you are not alone in this world. There are always people who will support and love you for all your undertakings.
The night i revealed the good news of my employment, i looked at my mom, she has a grin on her face, but i felt it that it was only a facade in her sad feelings. I knew inside she wants me to stay. But life's is not about like that. In order for a person to grow, you have to let them go. Even though it is painfully to admit, i do not want to go at first. I will miss them for sure. But i started to think that, will i remain like this in my entire life? i know i have to learn to live on my own. To be responsible for my own life. My parents gave me everything i needed, shelter, education, etc. And now, it is up to me if i want to pay them back for what they have done.
There's no price to pay for their hard work in raising me as their son, so all i can ever give them in return is to be like them one day. Equipped with life needed skills. Matured, ready for trials of life.
I don't want to be a kid anymore, playing, fleeing problems, etc. I want to be confident like them. I want to be able to ride with the life's journey. I know it is hard, but it is not impossible.