It is not the experience after all.

employment in a job is really fascinating.you get to work, earn bucks, gain experience and most of all,my favorite, meet a lot of new people..especially girls. here in my work, i am blessed to have a handful of gorgeous women around me. during my first day orientation, the first girl that struck me the most cupid arrows is Angel. Oh my, in my life, i have never seen a name with a literal interpretation of the person itself. she's chinky eyed, average height, and a blowing gorgeous smile. unfortunately, she stays on the 2nd floor of the building. well, i'm working at 5th floor. she is the executive secretary of the company. oh man, i have never seen her in the hallways yet. everyday, i am still hoping.
another woman here which gives me the motivation to work everyday is ritzy. she's a new employee like me. i just started earlier than her. when she was first introduced to us, she was wearing a black corporate dress which defines her slim body. she has small eyes too and a short but sweet smile. she wears braces. i have never gotten a good conversation with her..it is because she's always with her friend during breaks. argh...but i am also hoping to know her better. i just dont know if she has a boyfriend which makes her to be "closed" to other people, i hope not.
another woman is ruby. she's an architect. i just love looking at her because she looks bubbly, happy person. she's cute too. one day, while i was getting a coffee in a vending machine,she was right behind me. as i looked back, our eyes met..i grinned...surprisingly, she smiled too..haha. i just dont know if she's married..well, if ever she is, the guy is lucky.
the last woman is pinky, an architect too.actually, i am looking at her right now. there is something on the way she looks at me that made me like her.she's chubby too..man! i have diggs for chubby women, i just don't know why. she's beautiful too..i just dont know too if she's married..i hope she's not.haha
well, appreciating the presence of such women really gives me the daily energy i need. i am always looking forward to a new day. i respect women a lot. that's what matters.

A tuesday miracle.

I received my first deadline. I have to pass my files on august 6. i am a bit scared and nervous but amazingly, i am not stressed..maybe because, i enjoy what i'm doing.i am expecting revisions, but i hoping that my estimates are for the good. i know from myself that i have never overlooked a detail, i hope i am right.oh well, at least, i have learned a lot from this. i wish that more will come.

The trains.

its my 3rd week in work. i arrived at 7:55am. i thought i will be late, but thanks a ot to God, i was even early. I was at the train station at around 6:50 in the morning. i was expecting that there will be few passengers since its still early. but i was wrong. the station was crowded, people don't stop coming in. i was a bit frustrated since it was already full of people, and the trains were also too. the only way to get a ride is to make your way to the thick crowd and push yourself in! actually i am a bit of a silent type of person. i like things to go smoothly. i don't like conflicts, rushing and chaotic situations. my basic solution for this problem was waiting for the people to get in first and hoping a spacious train to pass by. unfortunately, my expectations did not came. the station did not ran out of people.
so to get to work on time, i actually pushed myself in the crowd everytime a train arrives. it was like 9 trains that had passed by  before i had my own ride. it was a stressful situation.
after getting my ride, during the trip, i was like wondering if i did not pushed myself. maybe i was still standing there in the station, waiting...
in life, opportunities come, it is up to us to grab them. opportunities are there for us to be stronger. so expect the difficulties. we also do not succeed in every opportunity that will come. but what is important is the effort we gave, the growth we have shown in ourselves, the perseverance. opportunities like the trains that i have let to pass will never come back, like the ones in real life. so, if ever we get a chance on something we wished for, we must grab the opportunity or else, time will just pass us by. we maybe then waiting forever.